Holy crap, I am really sorry

I have neglected this for more than a month. Jesus Christ. (Hah...it's Christmas...ha...) Well, actually, it's not Christmas anymore. It's 23 minutes past it. I hope everyone was in good cheer and got lots of presents and blah blah blah. But seriously, from what I've heard, it was a good one. I hope everyone had fun.

I, I went into Chinatown with my family, as any typical Jew would on Christmas, and ate Chinese food. I also bought a shitload of Chinese food and candy, which I'm a sucker for (unfortunately). I've been eating it all night, but my brother finished his little bag of candy in the half hour time period right after buying it. Woooo..

I also watched Up for the first time today. My god. What a terrific movie. Seriously, Pixar, you are fantastic. Not that we don't know that already.

ANNNNNNDD on the subject of movies, movies and plays are my focus this break. I even made a list.

Movies to See/Watch

• Avatar
• Up in the Air
• Sherlock Holmes
• Fantastic Mr. Fox
• Me and Orson Welles
• Crazy Heart
• Invictus
• A Single Man

and on DVD...Star Trek (...I know, I know, but I got it for Hanukkah and it makes me almost as happy [if not a bit more] than Ferris Bueller so...yeah), North By Northwest (another Hanukkah present...Cary Grant <3),>

SO FAR I HAVE SEEN: Avatar. Fantastic Mr. Fox. Up. Star Trek. North by Northwest.

I've been trying to do, like, one a day so I don't get TOOO fat by just sitting and watching movies. OK. Quick reviews of movies in theatres:

AVATAR.

Holy mother of GOD. HOLY MOTHER OF GOD. This is a phenomonal movie. It is possibly the most visually pleasing and mindblowingly beautiful film I have seen in my entire life. All the acting is done wonderfully, especially Michelle Rodriguez's little part- she kicks ass. Such a great movie. Please see it, if not for the storyline then just for the experience, before it leaves theatres. Which won't be anytime soon, so you're lucky.

Fantastic Mr. Fox

Holy mother of God! This is ALSO a great movie. Like Avatar, the animation is fantastic but obviously in a completely different way. I've always been partial to stop-motion because I grew up on Wallace and Gromit (Hardy har har..) but this just blew my mind. The addition of the voices of Meryl Streep, George Clooney, and the guy who voices Kristofferson (...sorry, actor) were great as well. Overall, an entirely satisfying movie. An adorable story told by adorable puppets. Just go see it. And be happy.

Okay. I also saw West Side Story (ergh) and Superior Donuts (YAY!)...which are plays, for those who don't know, but I'll be reviewing them in the next post. Sorry for so much movie-talk, but that's really what is running through my head most of the time.

I hope everyone had a great holiday, and for my jewish brothers and sisters I hope your Hanukkahs were as great as mine :)

....and to all a good night!

Bye. xx

Song of the Day: every christmas carol but especially Mariah Carey's...and I See You- Leona Lewis.

I saw Hair.

It changed my life. End of story. I will write all about it tomorrow, but it's super late right now. This is just a heads up!

ALSO happy thanksgiving to all of you my dear friends. I do hope that it was as wonderful as mine. I am thankful for so many things:

My family. My wonderful, wonderful family. Just to begin with.

1. My friends.
2. My DOG (that's funny I tried to write dog and wrote god instead...)
3. the chances I get at Masters to pursue directing
4. tea
5. people who push and don't ever stop pushing for equality
6. Hair. the cast of Hair. the music of Hair.
7. Brett Erlich.
8. Movies.
9. Books.
10. the Food Network.
11. german techno.
12. pillows.
13. indie scarves.
14. freedom.
15. anyone who has ever made an impact on me
16. Equus.
17. grass.
18. George Orwell
19. Barack Obama (!!!!!!!!!!!!)
20. the lightbulb
21. chocolate chips
22. Gavin Creel
23. pirates (not of the Somalian variation)
24. people who love me. people who I love.

Guys...I'm so thankful. I have so much to live for. Thank you.

Goodnight

xx.

Song of the Day: EVERY SINGLE FUCKING SONG FROM HAIR.

romcoms

Romantic Comedy Count (for the Weekend): 2
1) 27 Dresses
2) The Proposal

Okay. For those of you who know me well in real life, and actually talk to me, you MIGHT possibly know that I don't really watch romantic comedies. I don't have (unfortunately) a huge amount of time to watch movies at ALL these days, so when I do, they're usually...awkward cough...a little more substantial. For instance I could've been watching something like the Bourne movies (which I STILL need to see, dammit) but I watched these.

Explanations

1) 27 Dresses
My best friend came home from college, and it was the DVD that was in her computer. She picked me up once she got back and we went out for awhile and by the time we got back to Pleasantville, the video store had closed. Our options: Disney Channel or 27 Dresses. Do not get me wrong. I like the Disney Channel as much as the other teenager (sometimes) but I actually (secretly) but not so secretly have a huge thing for James Marsden. BUT SERIOUSLY WHO WOULDN'T. HE'S SO BEAUTIFUL
...anyway. Jeez. I've seen that movie about 6 times now (or something around that number) for the sole reason of JM, but (HOLY SHIT I JUST NOTICED THAT JAMES MARSDEN AND JASON MRAZ HAVE THE SAME INITIALS. Great stuff. greeeeeat stuff.) I don't really mind. It's a pretty decent rom com. It's entirely predictable, but the acting is pretty good and you're pretty satisfied with the ending. Also, did I mention that James Marsden is in it? :)
ROMCOMRATING: 7/10

2) The Proposal
Sandra Bullock. Ryan Reynolds. The same girl who played the sister in 27 Dresses (go figure) playing the ex-girlfriend. Coles was over and we had no idea what to watch. She suggested The Reader, because for some reason I have it in my house even though none of my family members have seen it....but I said no, because I didn't feel like being depressed. Turn on the TV, caught a little bit of the third Pirates movie, had NO fucking clue as to what was going on, looked on Demand and found The Proposal. Boom. It was preeeeeetty damn good. First of all, Ryan Reynolds is adorable and pretty charming. Sandra Bullock played a very obnoxious character extraordinarily well. Solid acting in both parts, and the secondary characters (minus the dad) were also very good. Also, there was a REALLY cute dog in the movie too. And Alaska. That gave it another point.

I actually really enjoyed it. It made me feel pretty warm and fuzzy inside without entirely overdoing it. Just enough cheesy music, just enough awkward nakedness, just enough stupid "funny" scenes, just enough finale kiss at the end. Pretty cute! If you're bored and don't want to put any energy into watching a movie, rent this. Also if you like Ryan Reynolds. Because he's adorable.

ROMCOMRATING: 10/10

THE ROMCOMRATING IS A CAREFULLY MEASURED RATING SYSTEM COMPRISED OF THE OPINIONS OF SHANA WALLACE AND THE WONDERFUL FRIENDS SHE VIEWED THESE MOVIES WITH. THE RATINGS ONLY COMPARE TO OTHER ROMCOMS, SO A 5/10 IS NOT COMPARABLE TO A 5/10 FOR A REGULAR MOVIE. THANK YOU. AND ENJOY THE BLOG.

I'm gonna write more tomorrow. It's break! WOOHOO!

love.

Song of the Day: none....really....I worked today. sorry! one tomorrow. ACTUALLY...just because I love this song: Bella Luna- Jason Mraz

chaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaanges or things that stayed the same.

1. I got a haircut. Short hair....weird.
2. I switched out of Hon Precalc.
3. I switched INTO regular Precalc.
4. I had to drop Directing.
5. I've been wearing less makeup lately. I can't be bothered. uhh
6. I've been sleeping more, but feeling less rested.
7. I've been crying a lot more lately. Which is odd, because I don't cry a lot.
8. I feel as if I've been appreciating music a lot more lately.
9. I still don't feel as if I put enough into clarinet.
10. Things may be starting to look up.
11. I've been feeling a little more self-confident lately, which is odd given the circumstances.
12. I really, really miss directing.
13. I might be doing independent study. That would be incredible.
14. I don't want people to forget about me.
15. I want you, but I don't at the same time
16. The new earrings I recently bought make me look like I should talk with a New Jersey accent.
17. I want desperately to sleep but at the same time I know I wouldn't be able to fall asleep.
18. I don't miss Pleasantville at all. I miss people, but not the place.
19. I love my friends. Goddammit.
20. Working at F&S sometimes gets me through the week.
21. I wish I was more productive
22. I wish I was quieter
23. I wish that I could stop wishing things and just be grateful for all of the fantastic things I already have.

You're cute.

Goodbye

xx

Song of the Day: The Load Out/Stay- Jackson Browne

*swoon*

back to the future

I don't know why, but I JUST had the urge to watch all three Back to the Future movies. (also if you haven't seen them, go punch yourself in the throat- but before you do that, watch them.)

This post is going to be short because I want to go to bed. For some odd reason I worked really diligently today and all I have left are some documents for APUSH and clarinet. What the fuuuuuuck. Not complaining, though.

Today was good except for precalc. This is the first time that I'm really (almost and probably) failing a class. It's just too fucking hard. I can't succeed at EVERYTHING dammit! Luckily, however, my parents are awesome and they just want to help. Thank god. They're not mad or anything, because they know I'm trying so hard.

I have the song "The Flag" by the Barenaked Ladies stuck in my head. It's a really sad song, but for some reason I can't stop listening to it. I wonder why :-/...

Daylights saving time (lack thereof, actually) is amazing. It makes me so happy. I actually slept for like, 7 hours last night. I woke up this morning and I felt weird, because for the first time in over a month I actually felt refreshed. Then I think I hit a sugar low at around 2 and that all disappeared.

GODDAMN my brother just started playing his trumpet. That means I have to wait to practice clarinet...fuckkkk.

Anyway, 2nd meeting of Harry Potter Club tomorrow. WOOOOO I'm excited. I think this week is going to be good, or atleast interesting.

Also your mission if you're reading this: TELL ME! I've already had a lot of people tell me they've read this, and as I've already said, I LOVE hearing that. Seriously. Pumps my self esteem up a little higher.

I'm going go choose another scene to direct for, guess what, Directing now. I want it to be a sad scene, or at least poignant.

Okay. I hope you're having a really good night, afternoon, morning, twilight (ergh), evening, or whenever you're reading this.
Best,
Goodnight
xx

Song of the Day: The Zephyr Song- Red Hot Chili Peppers

cool. cool life

For some reason I feel as if life really can't just leave itself be for a little while. For instance, I don't need to reiterate the fact that I don't get any sleep (partially responsible is the fact that I spend my time doing this) and am stressed out all the time, but REALLY?

The case in matter: My wood floors are being redone this week. As in the whole house REEKS of turpentine and we can't eat or walk in the kitchen? We've had takeout for the past two nights and then I basically just go hide in my room for the rest of the night, with my homework and whatnot, trying to escape the unescapable smell.

SERIOUSLY WTF. I always feel like there's gotta be something. This isn't a great example because it's not THAT big of a deal, but whatever.

Anyway it rained today. And I was depressed by the end of the day - play just ended and no matter how much I think I'm gonna see these people...I'm really not. And it makes me really sad. I mean, I always try SO HARD to stay good friends with people I care about, but it's too fucking hard right now. And that makes me really sad.

Needless to say: everyone at school is amazing. I really DO love you guys, and I appreciate the fact that each and every day you put up with shit and don't slap me silly. :) :) :) :) :)

But yeah. Play was fucking great, even though a lot of people didn't like the play. I actually ended up liking it a lot more than I thought I would, especially because of the performances.

ALSO HARRY POTTER CLUB STARTED TODAY and I'm so excited. I'm "Deputy Headmistress" and Head of Gryffindor. Woohoo :D To all my Gryffindor-lings, we're gonna kick some ass.

Despite all of this, I still have some homework left to do. And I know IN FACT that I will get in bed by 11 tonight, because I'm going to physically make myself do it.



....but I'm not tired. I'm not wired, though, either. I'm just kinda in this weird, perpetual state of sadhappycontentscaredness these days, and especially today. I don't know what I want, but I know that I won't be able to sleep trying to think about it.
:-/

I just wish things could lay themselves out in front of me on a big table, and I could pick and choose what I wanted. But hey, that wouldn't be life now would it?

Okay. Time to leave.

BUT BEFORE I GO: ROSHAN.DAVID.JAMIE. =PEOPLE WHO ACTUALLY CAME UP TO ME AND TALKED TO ME ABOUT MY BLOG. When people do this, they really make me feel all warm and fuzzy inside. I appreciate it tremendous amounts, and I really mean it. Thanks so so much guys, and I will definitely write more often now.

Now to leave with random thoughts and then work and then sleep:
(My foot is asleep gahh)
((I feel like crying))
(((If you could only hug me for one minute more, I'd be happy.))) I know this one is cheesy, but what am I supposed to do? Tell my brain to stop thinking teenage thoughts?

K. Goodnight. I hope all of you guys have good days/hours/seconds/weeks.
xx

Song of the Day: Fireflies- Owl City

HOOOOOOOOOLY SHIT.

Okay, so it's not like I've been gone for a month and a half or something from this...nah. Nothing like that at all.

JUNIOR YEAR IS FUCKING HARD, DAMMIT. I don't get much sleep, and I'm constantly breaking down. It's okay, though (well kinda), because my friends and acting and stuff are all amazing right now. I just don't really get a huge amount of time to relax (or write on this), unless I'm procrastinating. Like right now :D

Too much shit has gone down (I feel so stupid for writing that but my brain isn't REALLLY working right now) in the past month for this one, short post.

:(

The play is on Friday :D I'm so excited. I'm so tired. AHHH AP ENGLISH STOP KILLING ME.


Okay. It's 10:22. I have to be in bed by 11. Possible?

Probably not.

Am I going to try my hardest?


...I don't know.

Okay so in apology for not writing for about 823947234 years, here's a cute picture.

















Okay. I will leave you all with several things running through my head:
(I miss you so much. I can't believe this happened, and my stomach hurts perpetually now because I can't talk to you.)
((You're so cute! AGHH my god.))
(((I don't know anymore. But a good "idk." If that makes any sense.)))
((((...just let me go to sleep, AP English. Let me rest.))))

G'night.
xx

Song of the Day: (THERE ARE ACTUALLY THREE TO MAKE UP! WOOHOO!)

1. I Won't Say (I'm in Love) -Hercules
2. Billie Jean - Michael Jackson
3. On Love, In Sadness - Jason Mraz