Love is...

...taking a dive, then getting really comfortable and peeing in the pool
and love is real life porn minus all the stuff that makes porn cool
and love is a homeless guy searching for treasure in the middle of the rain and finding a bag of gold coins and slowly finding out that theyre all filled with chocolate and even though he's heartbroken he cant complain cause he was hungry in the first place.
-Bo Burnham.

First of all. Bo Burnham is a genius. I just bought his live album. *sigh* Made my life.

Anyway...so much has gone on since my last post.
Um for some reason I feel like a huge tool after writing that sentence...

I don't know anything to write. I've been so so happy ever since coming back to school, and I think it's because I get to see all of my friends :) I really didn't see many of them the second week of break because I worked at the bakery a lot and kind of just couch potato-ed around as well. I was so so sososososo happy, though, to see everyone. I was kind of sad the second week of break...after coming back from Europe. There's a few reasons why :-/

That weird truly happy/sad feeling has carried over into today, as well. A couple of things just made me very happy, but a couple of things are making me so hopeless...

I just want it all to be right.

Buuuuut. I can't complain much. My friend just told me about this girl at his school...and she literally has the WORST life I've ever heard of. I feel like an idiot after complaining to him. It's terrible. I think I just gotta GRASP onto that happy feeling and keep it here.

I'm starting One-Act plays at school. I think they will be really fun. We'll see! Some of the scenes are just fantastic. I hope I get one of my choices, but I doubt I will. There are so many good actors at school and sometimes I just feel so inexperienced. Which I guess I am...
I WILL KEEP TRYING, HOWEVER.

and in the meantime. I will go do my drama homework.
Try to keep me happy. IM me. Facebook me. Comment this.
Please?

*fake desperation*
Oh and also:
http://www.flourandsunbakery.com/
the bakery I work at. COME VISIT ME :-)

Until later,
bye. xx
Song of the Day: Accidentally in Love- Counting Crows


^^One of my favorite pieces of art. I get a picture of one everyday on my Google.

Listen close to everybody's heart.

And hear that breaking sound,
hopes and dreams are shattering apart
and crashing to the ground
-MY EYES, DR. HORRIBLE'S SING ALONG BLOG

There are so SO many things that I could write about right now...I honestly can't even choose.
...OH BOY THAT MEANS IT'S TIME FOR ANOTHER LIST! HOLY COW!

1. THE VIRTUOUS BURGLAR.
Is DONE :( It was a fabulous play and the Saturday night performance (closing night, since there were only two performances) was incredible. I had SIX friends not from my school who came to see me. Everyone hugged me after. People were so happy and proud of me. Thinking about it, it still makes me happy.
I really want to be in Phoenix.

2. I am presently: wanting to sleep, watching my ADORABLE hamster chew up whatever she's chewing up, in pajamas, typing, and feeling simultaneously fantastic and terrible at the same time.

3. Teching for URINETOWN.
Despite the fact that I was told I MUST do this very late in the game...I had...so...much...fun. Seriously. I don't even know why! It just was fun. The only downside to being backstage for the performance (I couldn't go to one of them) was that I couldn't actually SEE the play. And two of my good friends were leads :( But it's okay. I still got to...hear...everything.

4. Carnet de Voyage.
This amazing book I'm reading. It's actually a travel journal of this guy. It's all sketches and little stories of his trips. So incredible.

5. FRANCE H'OMG.
I am going to France and Switzerland on Friday night. Oh.My.God. I am so excited. I feel so lucky that I can go, and one of my good friends is going too. YAY.

6. HELLO, DOLLY!
(At my old school.) I went to hang out with my bestest bud today at PHS because I didn't have that much homework. And the homework that I had I didn't end up doing. I'm sucha failure! Anyway...it is SO nervewracking being back in my old school. My stomach ended up hurting like hell, and I was afraid to go anywhere alone. I feel so ridiculous when I go there...like people have either: honestly forgotten who I am/that I was ever there, or that they actually care about me. And if it's the latter, I've probably seen them outside of school. ANYWAY. DAMN. I am going off on tangents tonight really easily. I am so fucking sad because I am missing every.single.one.of.their.performances.because.of.France. I am leaving opening night and coming back just a few mere hours after their last performance. I am so sad...if any of you are reading this...I love you so much and I feel absolutely terrible...I cannot believe that the timing is so bad. But DO expect me at another rehearsal this week :) I will be popping in and out. YAY. Lots of broken legs, people!

7. I am so completely torn between two people right now. I know that sounds so weird, and...conceited...and just nasty? But. I think...I think I might really be falling for one of them. I don't know how that is possible. And the other...I'm just drawn to them. And I shouldn't be. And I can't be. I can't explain it, at all. These two things are coinciding on levels that you wouldn't believe. I don't even begin to undestand this. But what I DO know is, I can't stop thinking about it.
PS to #7. If you ask me about this in real life, I will walk away. Hah. Well, not really. Please do not be offended, but I will not be talking about this with anyone for awhile.

8. Time to sleep.
ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ.

Bye...for now, I guess.
xx

Song of the Day: Run Freedom Run - Urinetown